Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Week two's a little slower...

September 29 

Today was a slower day at the hospital, not an incredibly sad thing to me. After last week’s craziness the slower pace was a welcomed break, as was being able to send most patients with their films today. I really love being able to tell patients that they can come back in only an hour or so, and then handing their films to them. To me it should be this way, so that they don’t have to return to the hospital. And though the day seemed normal, there were a few things that stuck out to me. 

One of the other radiographers and I were talking about culture. About the culture in the hospital, in Gulu and in Uganda, in general. And we began to talk about wartime culture, especially as it pertains to the IDP camps in the surrounding area here. Because people didn’t have anything to put their energy towards (work, school, etc) they began to seek out friendships. Sometimes this meant sexual intimacy. Because of that, the prevalence of HIV/Aids and other diseases is pretty high here. However, the mindset of violence and chaos has been more overwhelming, and so why should I care about some disease that might kill me in ten or fifteen years? And please don’t read what I’m not writing. I’m not saying that everyone has that mindset, but as a culture within the camps, it had been accepted. And a whole generation here only knew the camps until just recently. Its really a problem, as the late teens and early twenty somethings have no concept of what their culture had been before. There is a depth to this place that I don’t even begin to say I understand or can comprehend. 

I also shared with him that I have had a couple really hard times since being at the hospital because I am seeing these atrocities to humanity, and then realizing that right now the country that I am from is engaged in a war. And apart from the ‘reason’ that the soldiers are there, people in those Middle Eastern countries are being affected the same as people here have. Innocent people will forever have their lives changed because of things that my country is doing right now. That messes with me...


Miss it and love it


I was sitting at home yesterday evening and realized there were more than a few really random things that I miss from home, besides family and friends, that I would not have expected to miss. And the things I thought I’d miss are not that big of a deal. So in an effort to appreciate them more when I get back, I decided to make a list. I also have realized there are things here I have grown to love in every day life here in Africa. Enjoy...







Things I miss from the U.S...

  • peanut butter cookies
  • Mom’s strawberry jam and butter on toast
  • fall leaves changing colors
  • crisp morning runs that leave my lungs clear and my breath visible
  • going on runs, period
  • watching high school soccer games
  • football games
  • pedicures
  • Grandpa’s house
  • Folgers coffee at Dad’s
  • reliable water for showers
  • wearing sweatshirts and my fleece pull over

Things I love in Africa...

  • sunshine in September and October
  • incredible thunder and lighting storms
  • boda boda rides
  • brightly clad school children skipping their way to school
  • freedom in my heart
  • simple joys experienced daily
  • African tea with ginger (its made with boiled milk instead of water)
  • fresh fruits and pure food
  • the open air market
  • cold showers on hot days
  • Bruschettes and chips (though only from Rwanda)

Monday, monday

September 28

I reported to work this morning after walking from home and arrived earlier than Charles so I just waited. One of our patients arrived shortly after so we greeted one another. It is kind of a neat thing to recognize people I have x-rayed, offer a smile and have the smile returned. Even if that is the only time I ever have that sort of interaction with them, I enjoy it. When Charles arrived we greeted one another and asked how the weekend had treated us. We began our duties, he developing films and me sorting the dried ones. A couple patients allowed me to take their pictures with their films, as they were part of the group who had sustained injuries from the conflict, and I am interested to know their stories. Peoples’ stories intrigue me and maybe one day that’ll be helpful. I have sort of resolved to not take pictures unless I have permission, and I was grateful these few granted it to me.

Charles ended up heading to town for something and all the films from last week were done so I began x-raying patients from today. I couldn’t sit still and know people were waiting for what I could help them with. And it felt good to be doing those exams on my own. A bit of independence I suppose. 

I did wake up with a headache this morning, so at about 1245 I told my coworkers that I needed to go for lunch, but would return after. I walked down the road and on the way called George (from Aid Africa) to see if they were at the office and maybe I could meet up with the staff for lunch. It ended up only being George and I, as everyone else had already ate, but at the restaurant we went to we spoke with some community service workers. One whom I spoke with was Betty, and she said that maybe she would have to stop by the hospital and see what could be done to improve the services there. I replied that if she did it would be wonderful. 

While George and I were sitting at lunch he explained how when he had stopped by the hospital that morning to check in on me, he watched the old Mose (a word that means older man, and is a term of respect) whom I was x-raying. George said that he could tell that the man was very glad that I was doing his exam. “He thought that just because you were doing the x-ray, he will be better. He’ll talk about that when he gets home... Its already circulating through town that a Muzungu is working in the x-ray department.” It was a funny story as he told it, but the implications are fairly immense. I simply take x-rays. If any miracle comes it is the hand of God, not me. Hopefully they see that.

On my way home at 4 pm I walked my normal route. I left early because all of the work was done and no new patients were arriving, and as I made my way by the Police Primary school I was joined by the young man who had been walking in front of me. He began to inquire about going to the US an what it would cost. And though he might have been sincere in only wanting information, those sorts of inquiries are difficult for me. I have realized that I have become somewhat closed to talking with people about it, as it happens quite often. Anyway... The boy talked with me for some time and as we talked he ended up asking me how it was that I got here. I explained how I had worked and save in order to travel here and now I am volunteering at the hospital. “But you’re getting paid, there at the hospital, right?” I said no, that it was voluntary and for free. “So you saved to come here and now are working for free?” he asked. I said yes and he said that was good. “Even here, not many people would do that. We would require maybe something for airtime or traveling, but we wouldn’t do what you are. Spending your savings. Thats good of you.” And though he was complimenting me, I took it differently. His words struck me, and as I thought about it I couldn’t help but ask why wouldn’t I come and help here? God has blessed me in so many areas and on so many occasions and the least I can do is come and serve where He so graciously is allowing me to. Thats the least I can do...

Morning Commute

I’ve begun to really enjoy my morning commute. I have begun walking to and from work, which is about a half of an hour one way. And though it gets really busy when I get downtown, the first part is wonderful. I walk past a couple of schools so if I time it right I get to see the young primary school aged kids as they walk to school. Here they wear uniforms which are bright hues of blues, purples and pinks. And as they joyfully make their way to their classrooms, alongside friends or siblings, the colors dance along. There is something gorgeous about these little ones’ dark brown skin contrasted with the bright uniform colors on their bodies and bright smiles on their faces. Though I hear Muzungu many times in the half hour, I am glad to witness such a colorful display every morning.

Sabbath Rest - Sunday


September 27

Sunday was my ultimate Sabbath rest day. I had wanted to go to a church here in Gulu but hadn’t been able to talk with anyone about where or what time so I decided to spend the day at rest and then have some personal time with Jesus as well. So I woke up late (I think 10 am) and then headed into town to again get on the internet. I hadn’t got everything done the day before, so I chose to spend my morning there. I was able to chat with a couple friends, which is such a sweet thing to me. People at the cafes must think I’m nuts because I spend my whole time with a big smile on my face, but its refreshing to hear from friends and family at home. 

After I left the cafe I walked up the street to the open air market. I wanted to grab maybe a little more fruit, and honestly, I had nothing else to do with my day and I love it there, so I decided I’d just walk through. I browsed through the fruit and veggie area and only found an avocado. I kept walking around and then saw a crowd sort of formed up a few steps. I decided to give in to my curiosity and was so glad I did. I heard a woman standing there say “we are celebrating our market.” There were some drums and people singing, and as I got closer I also saw around 20 women in a couple of lines, a few with whistles and the rest with some sort of stick in their hand. The drums were being played very well by two men, and as they began to play the women began to dance and sing. There was on woman sort of leading and then the rest would respond to her song. I stood there and watched for probably fifteen minutes. I ended up taking some photos and video. The people around me were enjoying it as much as I was, and it was such a special treat for me. I had been hoping just a few days before to see some traditional things from this area and I got to experience it! 

Sunday evening had me at home and relaxing all evening. Though I was glad to have the weekend to myself (with the girls in Kampala) it also made me realize how much of a blessing it is to be living here. If I had been staying in a hotel I wouldn’t be able to come home and talk with people, share meals and laughter with them. I needed the rest days, but it definitely made me appreciate having roommates. Thank You Lord for providing this situation!

Jam and butter - Saturday


Weekend Rest  (Sept 26-27)

This weekend offered a great rest time for me as the girls headed to Kampala because Brooke has a flight Monday morning to head back to the US. So they took off Friday morning and I was home alone. I took advantage of my Friday evening and watched ‘The Proposal,’ probably staying up later than I should have, but shoot, I used to work weekend night shift. A friday night to do whatever I wanted was unheard of until about a month ago! I tried to sleep in Saturday morning but a text from a wonderful friend woke me up and I decided to get ready and go to Cafe Larem to have breakfast and get on the internet. 

When I got to the cafe I looked over the menu and decided on the “American Classic.” Eggs, sausage, and toast with jam and butter. I could have cared less about all of it except the jam. That sold me. I didn’t realize how much a good peanut butter and jelly sandwich satisfied my hunger until I came here and found that jelly is really expensive. Bananas are good with peanut butter, but every once in a while you gotta splurge, even when in Uganda. So I ordered that breakfast and enjoyed EVERY second of my toast with jam and butter, since I hadn’t had jam in at least a month. I actually took a picture and the waitress laughed at me, but I didn’t care. And ya, I’ve now been here for a month! That was really crazy to realize.

After spending some time chatting with friends and family and enjoying my breakfast I headed to the open air market to get a few things. It smelled a lot like fish that day, which I found out was because a huge load of smoked tilapia came in from Lake Victoria. Not the best smell in the world, but not horrible either. I found some small bananas, an avocado and a mango and was satisfied. I decided I’d save the adventure of buying smoked tilapia for another day. Before I left the states I had been told to check out the market but also to realize that it can be overwhelming. However, as I was in there I loved it! Its very busy, and lots of people selling lots of different things, but at the same time its amazing and I love the colors, smells and sights. I talked with the vendors, asking them which fruit was the best and other questions about the market. They were all very helpful and welcoming. As I left I sort of began laughing because to me this is so comfortable. This controlled chaos is exciting and wonderful to me. Not sure where that comes from but its reality. I love it.

I spent a lot of time writing and reading on Saturday, as well as cleaning. I hadn’t realized the plug in the floor was clogged and water was running out into the hall while I was taking my shower until a substantial amount had escaped, so I ended up mopping the floor. Then, in typical Jamie form, I went on a rampage. I spent a couple of hours doing little chores I had though of doing in the past week and it was wonderful. It made me feel like I was at home, and that I was investing in this house that is home for me while I am here in Gulu. Saturday was well spent in my opinion.

 

Thank goodness its Friday


September 25 

I reported to work this morning around 8 and realized that the morning would again be spent developing films. We had left many undeveloped in the cassettes, even though we left work at 7 pm the evening before. There simply were not enough hours in the day, nor energy in our bodies to complete all the work. So until about noon we spent our time developing films and making sure we x-rayed the patients we had turned away the day before. There were a few we had to ask to return which had come long distances and all I could do was apologize. Something about me doesn’t want to see them suffer. That is challenging for me. 

We actually took lunch before we began on today’s patients because if we had not, there would have been no break. I had great difficulty walking back and forth by patients who had waited for 8 hours, seated on the concrete floor, and yet there was nothing that could be done. And then to know that some would not get their results until the next day, or in this case not until Monday, that gets to me. For instance, one 9 year old boy came in with a sling on his left arm. His shoulder was hurting and they said he had fallen out of a tree. When we finally brought him into the room (he was one of today’s patients whom we had to wait to radiograph) we tried to remove the sling and he grimaced and began to cry. It hurt him so much to have us move his arm, though he hadn’t made a sound until then. I told Charles I would x-ray him with the sling on and I promised that the film would turn out. I shot an AP shoulder and then a Y-view, and as escorted him back out to the hall I realized he would have to wait until Monday in that condition. Not only were we really behind on the films, but by the time his would be developed (if we did them that day) there would be no way for him to go see a doctor. So all weekend he would be in the sling, in pain. 

Some of that time waiting for films to be developed served as great opportunities for Charles and I to talk more about how things are at hospitals here in Uganda. Something that is very different from Western culture is that when a patient is in the hospital here, their family or maybe a close neighbor has to bring food for them. There is not a cafeteria or Cafe Yumm that they can run to to grab some food. If they even come in the middle of the night in labor, still someone must bring them food or drink. There simply are not resources to offer that service for people. And the same goes for patient gowns. I finally realized, as I watched one patient after another with an IV still in place come for x-rays, that they wear their normal clothing while admitted into the hospital. And the only time that I have seen any sort of scrubs or hospital attire is when I’ve observed the surgery gowns on the clothesline to dry. I’m not sure if that is sterile technique (in fact, I’m sure it is not), however, we do the best we can with what we have here. 

Though the process is a long one, I do love to see films hanging in the sunshine to dry. As I’ve said before, we hang films outside to get them dry after they’ve been developed, and to me there is something artistic about it. But an automatic processor would be much better here. It would not only streamline the process but also provide better care for patients. One time when I was outside checking the films I noticed a woman bent over one of the tubs that are typically used for washing clothing or dishes or something like that. She was slowly washing something. As I watched closer I realized it was a baby! She was hand washing what looked to be a newborn, or only a few day old child. I just stopped and watched for a minute. It is incredible to me what these kids survive. And I’m not talking about being washed outside, however, it is part of the life here and its really amazing.

An ‘emergent’ case came in this afternoon that cut the line. A doctor came and said that he had a patient who was having convulsions and a very hard time standing and paying attention so they needed us to shoot a lateral skull film. When the patient came in, he really was in as bad as shape as they had said and we had a pretty interesting time getting him to stay in the position we put him in for the film. We ended up developing that one right away (so it is possible...) and when the attendant came back after taking the patient back to the ward, we gave her the film wet. A wet read. I think the only time I had ever heard of that was when Rees told us about it in RDSC 101. Charles said “they are looking for something here” as he pointed to the outer most portion of the patient’s brain. As far as I could tell they were trying to rule out meningitis. Wow...

Though this whole hospital experience has been challenging and tiring, I am so honored to be here, serving these people. As I was in the middle of an exam yesterday and I realized the situation (it has been hitting me in waves), the passage out of Isaiah 58 came to mind. Verses 10-11 say:

“...and if you spend yourselves on behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in darkness and your night will become like the noonday. The Lord will guide you always; He will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail.”

And it was as if God was remind me of His provision and protection over me. Though I’m being exposed to things I cannot see and I am seeing more than I ever imagined could be seen, He has me and will strengthen my frame. The blood of Jesus is powerful and He has covered me. Its incredible for me to realize. 

I don’t think that the timing of me coming here was an accident at all. I began to think about how that would have been this week if Charles was alone. And not that I’m super special or know a ton, but it is always easier to get a lot done with an extra pair of hands. Its also opened my eyes to a lot. Not only the magnitude of their suffering, but also the history of this area, which was something I had hoped to be able to learn before I came but didn’t have the opportunity. It really is amazing to be here. 

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Day 2 at GRRH - Another busy one


September 24

Today was the second day of work and after the long hours of the first I was pretty tired. However, I got out of bed, got ready to go and head out for the hospital. Due to the fact that I didn’t know how long it would take me to walk across town to the hospital I had decided to take a boda for the first couple of days. I also didn’t want to get lost, and reasoned that most boda drivers could safely get me to GRRH. The boda ride only took a few minutes and I was dropped at the front gate. I made my way into the unit, the clock barely registering 7:45am. Even in spite of my early arrival I was still unable to beat Charles to the unit. He was already there, getting things set up for the day that lay ahead of us. We greeted one another and then laughed as we both realized we should get started. We still had numerous films to develop from the day before and we were sure that more would be arriving from the group of conflict victims. And so the developing binge began. Under Charles’ instruction we were not going to x-ray any patients for today until yesterday’s films were developed and mostly given back to the respective patient. This became difficult for me as I walked back and forth through the hallway of eagerly waiting patients. However, I had decided to take the instruction of my senior colleague and adhere to his advice.

Finally at about 11 am we were finished with the x-rays from the day before. During our developing stages, Charles was in the dark room, dipping films, while I was waiting for them to dry so that I could write the information on them and attach them to the correct requisition. This was our process for those first four and a half hours of work, and it actually worked very well.

Once we began to x-ray patients, it was apparent that today was going to be another long day. We had imaged 53 patients the day before (which goes very slowly with only one machine and manual processing) and this day seemed as if the number would be similar. And to begin the day we had a few patients whose films had been misplaced or spoiled. So right off the bat we had to repeat films which is mentally exhausting and frustrating. Within the first few hours of work both Charles and I looked at each other and said almost simultaneously “I’m more tired today than yesterday.” We both agreed that it’d be a long day so we would take our time with things. Not be slow, but balance movement with rest, so as to not get burnt out. 

Today went a little smoother than yesterday because I knew more of the ‘flow.’ At least I felt more useful today. And as Charles realized that I could do some of the work, he began to allow me to help rather than making sure he was right there with everything that I did. It was good, as it made it more of a co-worker relationship than visitor one. 

Something that I noticed, and was bothered by on a couple occasions, was that patients are x-rayed one day and told to return the next day to pick up their results. With most of the patients that we saw it was not a problem, as their injuries were not acute and it was more of a check up than an acute diagnosis. However, with a few patients who had sustained injuries today, they would have to wait until the next day for their films. An interesting and challenging thing for me to get used to, especially considering the instantaneous results I have been used to giving to doctors and patients.

Along with all of the conflict patients we continued to see normally sent patients. These coming from out patient facilities, other hospitals, or the wards. One that really struck me was a young child. Maybe about two years old whose requisition only said “PTB Check.” I didn’t know what that meant, but Charles said it was a chest x-ray that we needed to do. I asked what the indication was. “Possible tuberculosis exposure.” At that point I had a choice to make. Do I treat this child as if they have TB or not? Do I refrain from touching them, from being too close? Or do I treat them as if they are completely healthy? It is a situation that I know will continue to come up, and I am challenged by those questions every time. And yet, my heart won’t let me be cold to it. Maybe that is my age and ‘immaturity,’ as some would say. Am I putting myself at risk and shouldn’t? Or maybe that is exactly the kind of heart I am supposed to have towards them? One that will not allow me to see these children and people as anything less than beautiful creations and my brothers and sisters. These are my daily questions...

Day 1 of Working At GRRH


September 23

I reported to work this morning and was just as excited as a five year old on their first day of pre-school. Instead of the ‘normal’ anxious feelings of beginning a new job, I was full of expectation and adrenaline. In true Thiel kid form, I arrived about a half an hour early. I hate to be late anywhere, and because I didn’t know how long it’d take to get across town and make my way to the unit, I left extra early. Turns out Gulu is a pretty small town and the boda ride took about seven minutes, even going slow. I carried a heavy bag today, as it was full of the two lead aprons, four thyroid shields and a few text books I had brought along with me. I wasn’t sure of the condition of the hospital while I was in the States, so I just collected a few things that I thought might be helpful. 

I arrived and the cleaning lady, Atim, was cleaning the unit, but I didn’t see any of the radiographers. I knew that there were some benches in the maternity ward, where the ultrasound machines are kept, so I decided to head there. I also thought maybe Morris would be there. I found a bench, sat my bag down and waited. I pulled out my text book (one of those ones that I had hated while in school) and referred to a few things. Turns out that there is useful info in those books. I felt like I was being watched and when I looked up the sweetest little girl was watching me. She had adorable little corn rows dangling down onto her neck and her sweet smile was full of shy curiosity. I sort of waved at her, and she looked away. Her mother was cleaning the floor in the entryway of the ward, and so she was there waiting. I was so impressed by how patient she was. She wasn’t fidgeting or upset in having to be there, but instead kept on inspecting her little child size fingers, and then looking up every once in a while to see if I was still there. 

Eventually I headed back over to the unit to find that Charles was there. I followed him into the office where I handed over the lead. We carried it into the room and found a place to hang it, on a window handle. I asked what was first and he said that he needed to develop some films from the day before. I said ok and followed him into the dark room. We began developing films and I attempted to understand the process. When I asked how long in the developer, Charles simply lifted a film and looked at it with only the red light and said it was good. Time for a water dunk and then the fixer. I didn’t even see an image on the film, had no idea how he had differentiated the darkness of the room with the image on the film, but somehow he knew. The film remained in the fixer for a certain amount of time (again, Charles just knew) and then back into the water for the washing. I was looking for some hard and fast ‘rules’ about developing the films and then I realized, there were none. Everything I had learned in the books was, once again, a guideline. Then seeing it in practice really taught me what was needed. A lot like life, I suppose. I can ‘think’ all I want about things, but the actions are the things that are going to actually teach me. Interesting lesson to have come from developing x-rays, but sometimes it happens that way. 

We took the films from the water after they had been in there a sufficient time, and walked outside with them. I wasn’t quite sure where we were going but quickly learned what was to happen now. Now the ‘hunt’ began. Much like searching for the hiding place of an Easter egg, we were searching for places outside to hang the films to dry. Suddenly a drainage pipe remnant was a hook, and a clothesline T was a rack. We scattered the films around the outside of the building to let the hot equatorial sun of Uganda dry the emulsion and fix the image on the films. How long do they dry? Until they are dry, is the easiest answer. Its like baking without a measuring cup. Some people just know when things are done, and when there is enough flour in the mix. After the films were dry, we carried them into the office and wrote the info on them. “GRRH - Patient’s Name - Date” And I’d like to tell you this was done in some fancy way, but it wasn’t. Good ol’ permanent marker works great on x-ray film I found out. After the info is written, then we would find the requisition (a pink half sheet with the exam, patient’s name, tribe, age, gender and ordering doctor’s name on it) and fold the requisition so that the film was in the middle. We continued this process until about 11 am and then began taking x-rays. At some point a doctor stopped by and told us that he was seeing a lot of patients who had been part of the ‘conflict’ and he would be sending them for x-rays today and tomorrow. “Be ready because we will deplete your film supply with these patients.” That could be interesting.

We began to see what that doctor was talking about. Patients began to come with requisitions said things like “retained bullet in thigh” and “bomb blast 15 years prior, r/o osteomyelitis.” One patient who really stuck out to me was a 24 year old man. He entered the x-ray room with a limp and the doctor had ordered his right knee to be x-rayed. As he pulled up his pant leg he revealed a slender, knobby knee that was covered in scars. Against his dark skin the scars weren’t extremely noticeable, but they were definitely there. Charles and I began to position the man’s knee for the anterior-posterior view, and then realized that he couldn’t straighten his knee. The back of his leg would not rest against the table because the joint had basically grown together. We did the best we could and Charles asked him when he had sustained the injury. He told us that he had been shot in the knee somewhere around 1996, I believe. He was eleven years old. When I saw his films later, I was astonished. His joint was completely closed and his knee looked like some 90 year old patients I had seen in the U.S. And those sorts of patients kept coming. A 20 year old female with a painful shoulder because she had retained shrapnel in it after a bomb blast when she was 8 years old. A 50 year old woman with a thigh that presented buckled and dimpled after reconstruction of her leg was attempted because she had been shot. Another 18 year old male who had a bullet in his abdomen. Not exactly what I had expected.

We worked hard until about 2:30 pm before taking a lunch break. Both Charles and I could tell from the other person’s face that we needed a break so we locked up the room, told the people waiting we would be back after lunch and we walked out. It was so difficult for me to leave, as most of the patients waiting had been there for hours, but at the same time I knew that if we didn’t leave I would not be doing well in a couple more hours. We walked to town and had lunch at a small restaurant near the clinic. I had rice and goat meat, and of course, it was delicious. After we had washed our hands (because we used them to eat the meat with) we walked further up the road to the clinic that both Morris and Charles work part time at. It seemed like an ethically wrong thing to do, especially with those other patients waiting, and yet it was what we did. Some things I have just realized I need to let happen and wait to see the outcome. Its difficult, but I resolved before I came that I wouldn’t be the person who ‘knows better’ and tries to force that. I would miss a lot of important things and not honor the call on my heart if I did that. So we went to the clinic and I waited while Charles helped Morris develop some films.

The clinic is a private organization and though there are x-ray and ultrasound capabilities there, one x-ray coasts 10,000 shillings. That is roughly $5 in US dollars, which doesn’t seem like much. However, when you realize that most people in this area have no means of coming up with money like that, and especially not for medical care, the magnitude of that price is realized. So if a person can afford the x-rays to be taken at the clinic they have them there, as the lines are shorter and the results given quicker. But if not, they are seen at GRRH, only after getting a referral from a doctor. Again, the process is excruciatingly slow.

Charles and I returned to the hospital about 45 minutes after we had left and began x-raying again. At 5:30 pm we looked at the clock and looked at the patients we had left. We were supposed to be off at 5 pm, but there were still eleven patients to be x-rayed. What do you do when you’ve worked straight since 7:45 am, but there are still patients who have sat all day to get their x-rays and have traveled really long distances to even be seen? You x-ray them anyway, put their films in the dark room to be developed the next day, and then go home at 7 pm. What a day! 

Visit to Gulu Regional Referral Hospital

September 22nd

I went to visit the hospital today, and met with not only the Medical Supervisor but also with the head radiographer, Morris, and the dark room assistant, Charles. As we walked into the hospital (George, myself and the MS) I was smitten. Though the buildings are made of mud bricks, and some windows have been fixed with plywood rather than glass, there was something incredibly humbling about being there, and also being welcomed there. 

We first talked with the MS and he explained the situation they are in. Gulu Central (as I knew it) is actually called Gulu Regional Referral Hospital. Regional meaning that this hospital serves five districts, more than 100,000 people. (Gulu district has about 20,000, so that estimate is probably off by a bit). Yes, there are other hospitals in the area, such as Lacor, however, those are privately owned or funded, and this is the government hospital of the area, so it serves a lot of people who are impoverished to a degree I have not experienced before. (The Northern region of Uganda is in a desperate state). However, despite all of these challenges, the staff are welcoming, compassionate and doing the best they can with what they are provided. The MS was very kind and showed us to the x-ray unit, where we waited for Morris to finish an ultrasound scan before we met him. As we waited we talked more about the situation in the area and I just attempted to take it all in. It can become very overwhelming, however, every small amount helps. So if I can help a little, even just relieving some of the work from those who regularly work at GRRH, that is fine with me. 

Morris entered the room and greeted us all. He is about 60 years old and has been doing x-ray and ultrasound for the past 30. He is from Kitgum but has been in Gulu for the past 25 years. He explained the work schedule, the work load, what I should expect and then showed me the room. There is one x-ray unit, a mobile one that they got a year ago. Standing behind it is the old unit, still with cobwebs on it, as it hasn’t been used in ten years. There is a table in the center of the room, bolted to the floor. The table is fixed, not one of the floating like I had been blessed to use in the US. The loaded cassettes lined the far wall, awaiting their turn to be used. A single lead screen was to the left, providing a little protection to the radiographer when an exposure was made. We proceeded into the darkroom, which is entered by passing through a labyrinth of balck painted walls. In the dark room sat three containers on the floor, a paper cutter and extra films on the counter. There are sinks to the left, however, those have not been used in some time I think. The three containers on the floor contain developer, fixer and water. The drying racks are hung on the wall on nails until the are needed to place one of the films in the developer. In the dark room we met Charles. He is the dark room attendant and also helps with the work load. He has been working at GRRH since 1982, and will celebrate his 47th birthday on October 9th and I later found out that his name is Uhuru Charles because he was born in the same year that Uganda got its independence. Uhuru means independence. He explained a little bit of the process of developing the films to us and I conceded that I would probably need to be taught how to process the films as I had only learned a small amount about it in school and had never put it in to practice. He agreed to teaching me and we exited the room. Though there were many patients waiting for their exams to be completed and my help would have been appreciated, I knew that I needed to go home and rest. George and I said farewell to the staff and then walked back out the same rusty gate we had driven in just an hour earlier. As we walked out I was hit by the reality of providing medical care to the third world population, and while it was an immense realization I was also very excited to be able to be here. There is something humbling about attempting to provide to care to people who have seen darker and more disturbing things than my mind can even begin to conjure up. To serve them. I cannot even put into words what it does to me when I think about what they’ve been through, and now I get to serve them. I don’t have words.


Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Bus ride takes me to Gulu, Uganda


The bus ride to Gulu began very interestingly, as I was dropped off by the taxi driver, having no idea the process to purchasing a ticket, getting on the bus or any of it. After discussing with the Olaras the safety of riding the bus alone, I decided to call the wonderful staff in Gulu and let them know I’d travel alone. (Sorry Ken and Peter!) I also had an interesting time because my luggage probably weighed only twenty pounds less than I do, and I didn’t want to leave any of it sitting, but rather wanted to keep an eye on it. So imagine if you will me carrying a 60 liter backpack on my back, a 65 pound duffle bag and a large messenger bag across a parking lot. Hilarious, right?! :) I had to do the mini step thing just to not trip. It was very funny (I was actually laughing to myself) and ended fine. I got my bags under the bus, and my messenger bag up the precariously steep stairs to a seat. I ended up sitting towards the back, which was a total blessing as I was able to talk with a British gentleman who came here to Gulu to continue some research he is doing in schools. He was a pleasure to talk to, and was full of historical and practical knowledge. We ended up talking about everything from the war that happened in Uganda to riding horses in a western style saddle to fly fishing. It was wonderful. I thought it to be very funny as well, though, that I was talking about hunting in Eastern Oregon while traveling across the Ugandan country side. (He had been in Oregon in 1970, so we chatted about that also). It really is a small world...

I arrived in Gulu at about 2 pm and was met by Brook, one of the girls who works for 31 bits here. We got on a couple of boda bodas, and headed to the house. I set my things down, talked with the girls for a little bit, and then called George, from Aid Africa. He came and picked me up, and we went to the office to meet the staff and a couple of students who Aid Africa supports in secondary school. They were all very welcoming and also very funny. Immediately I felt at ease, as they joked with one another and me. We waited a little longer at the office before being joined by John, Josh, Louisa and Alex. John is an international rotarian who began a school in Jinja, Uganda, some 14 years ago. Josh is his god-son, and Louisa and Alex are Josh’s friends from secondary school. They all decided to spend part of their last summer before University visiting John, and experiencing Uganda. John wanted to see some of the projects that Aid Africa has going (as he has known Ken for some time), so we all piled into the van and headed out to the field. I was glad for the opportunity to see more of the area, as well as meet the people whom the organization helps.

We had quite a good time. We first met recipients of the 6-brick stoves and were able to see the benefit of the stoves in their huts. From there we proceeded to the brick yard and where the staff explained the old model, the possible improvements, and the prototypes they are working on. We got back on the road and were heading to town when we noticed a group of people gathered. There had been an accident on a couple of bodas, leaving a pregnant woman dusty and bruised, and a small boy with a pretty badly bleeding foot. In true Aid Africa form, we had both of the injured people climb into the van, and we gave them a lift to Lacor hospital. After dropping the woman at Lacor, we took the boy to a clinic, as all he needed was his wound cleaned and a dressing. However, because of things that are in the soil, having that wound could be very dangerous for him, so it was very important to have it cleaned properly. We parted ways with our friends from the UK and then the staff, myself, and the young boy all went to dinner together. I was able to finally try mashed matoke (the unsweet bananas) and it was really good! I also had some rice and talapia, with sauce. I love African food! After some interesting searching for my house, the staff dropped me at home and I basically melted into my bed. After not sleeping the night before and a FULL day of traveling and exploring, I was exhausted.

This morning I slept in and then made my way to the office. Today (I had been told yesterday) I would meet with the hospital administrators and tour the hospital. I requested that I not begin working until tomorrow (wed) as I was still pretty tired and wanted to rest a bit more. George and I headed to the hospital around eleven and were welcomed by Dr. Akii. He is the Medical Supervisor of the hospital, as well as one of the gynecologists for the referral hospital. I found out today that Gulu central is the region’s referral hospital, and serves five districts. (Roughly 100,000 people). Up until a year ago they did not have a working x-ray unit, and even now only have a portable unit, with hand processing. It was a pleasure to talk with Dr. Akii and he introduced me to the head radiographer, my ‘boss’ for the next month. I was given a tour of the unit, and also shown the manual processing. Yep. Going to have to crack the books to remember how long in the fixer and developer and everything. Though the line outside the room was long, and they would have liked me to work today, they agreed that I should rest up and then report back tomorrow morning. So I begin ‘work’ tomorrow, at 8:30am and will work until 5pm. (We take a lunch break at 12:15. Might end up being a nap break for me!) Though the hospital will prove to be challenging for me, I am EXTREMELY excited for this opportunity and am looking forward to tomorrow morning. After we left the hospital, George helped me to find a few things I needed to buy before we parted ways and I came home to unpack/set up my room and rest. 

I am so glad to be here in Gulu and so amazed that I am. :) Its still as surreal as when I was boarding the airplane. I am in Uganda. Wow...


Kampala Weekend

The weekend had me at Caitlin and Eddie’s house, which was so much fun and so relaxing. After an 8 hour ride from Kigali to Kampala on Saturday, they picked me up at the bus station and welcomed me to their home. They live in one of four flats that are located behind their landlord, with the housing being provided by the school that Caitlin works for as part of her contract with Rainbow School. They have the upstairs spot, so they have a great balcony, perfect for watching the African thunder storms that have began to occur in Uganda. (Love that!) We spent Saturday evening just hanging out, laughing and enjoying each other. They let me watch their wedding video and look at pictures, and then Caitlin showed me how to make some INCREDIBLE homemade spaghetti sauce in Africa. We feasted on spaghetti and garlic bread, and the two of them had me laughing the entire evening. I was incredibly blessed to be allowed a warm shower and comfortable bed, as well. We made our way to church the next morning after a delicious breakfast of coffee (thank you Ntezimana’s for my birthday gift! Love the Nescafe!), ground nut, honey and egg sandwiches. No, I didn’t have the groundnuts and honey with the eggs. Two separate sandwiches. :) Watoto church was where we attended, and it was amazing! We got there for 2nd service and the place was PACKED! I am bad at guessing, but I’d say at least 1000 people. The worship was phenomenal, with the worship team being backed up by a 60 person choir. And the word was right on point, being brought by a guest pastor who is pastoring now in Canada, but he and his wife had spent 25 years of their 50 years married pastoring in Africa. (I thought that was awesome, that I was sitting under the teaching of a long time missionary). After church we headed back to the Olara home, which is in Kasanga, a suburb of Kampala. We did this by boarding a mini-bus taxi, something I had never attempted in Rwanda. It was fine though, and on our way to the house we stopped at the open air market that is about a block away and purchased the food that we would need to make dinner that night. Caitlin and Eddie prepared an incredible meal of posho (a ‘bread’ made of maize flour), beef in sauce, and cooked cabbage. It was so delicious, especially accompanied with the FRESH passionfruit juice that Caitlin made. I’m telling you. If I stayed there for any length of time I would probably not fit into my clothes. Those two can cook! Eddie went to a crusade to sing that evening, but because I was preparing to come to Gulu and Caitlin needed to prepare for teaching the next day, she and I stayed home. It was really nice, for me at least, because it afforded us some wonderful time to talk and catch up on ‘girl things.’ I went to sleep that night with the plan of getting up around 5 to take a taxi to the post office, in order to catch the Post Bus to Gulu. My night didn’t quite include sleeping (I think I got 45 minutes) but only because God and I had some time together. It was a blessed time, as I listened to the awe-inspiring music of an African thunderstorm against the roof and sipped Ugandan tea while reading my Bible. I realized that sleep that night was overrated. 

I caught the right bus and headed off to Gulu yesterday morning after another wonderful breakfast prepared by none other than yours truly, Eddie Olara. Even at 5:30 am he was full of joy and laughter. And he and Caitlin are a beautiful couple with hearts hard after God. What a special time with them...

Border hoppin

I left Kigali around 5:45am on Sept 19th, on a Starways Express bus. It was a big bus, with seats that reclined and were comfortable. The bus had the air conditioning going, for which I was thankful. We traveled north towards Uganda for about three hours before we got to the border. I had no idea we were approaching the border, but people just began to get out of their seats and stand in the aisle of the bus. It was foggy, and because I had never traveled on that road before I was not expecting anything coming up. But when you see about 20 people start standing up and filing into the aisle (even though the bus was still moving), and they are holding their passport or another form of identification, logic would say “we must be getting close to the border.” 

We came to a stop and all of those people who had been standing in the aisle now began to file off the bus. All I saw was a small building that looked something like a concession stand at a high school football game, with a few small windows, and a roof that extended over the area we were all supposed to stand in line to be helped. We were asked (very nicely, I might add) to stand in one of three lines and to make sure we had our ‘exit paper’ completed. This is a small card that simply asks how long you plan to be abroad, where you’re headed, what your name/passport number/date of birth is, and a few other questions. You also have to fill a similar card out when you arrive in Rwanda, and it doesn’t take long. 

As we stood in one of the three ‘lines’ they began to mush together, something that I have seen before here in Rwanda. In the US we have an understanding of ‘personal space’ and what that means in different contexts, such as public, friends, and intimate. Well, here, not so much. I was reminded of this unnerving fact when the man behind me, who was rather well endowed around his mid-section, kept touching me. It was not in a disrespectful or intended manner, but his belly just kept touching my back. I would move a few centimeters away, and he’d move closer to the front of the line. Again, touching me. I tried a few times to make some sort of distance, but to no avail. By that time I was at the front, so I just ignored it for the duration and then jetted out of there as soon as the officer handed my passport back to me. 

I left the line (which had been replenished by a fresh bus load of border crossers) and realized that I didn’t see the bus that I had come on. Hmm... What now? There were a few buses in front of me, but definitely not mine. As I looked around and began to walk by the buses, I noticed a lady in front of me whom I recognized from the Starways bus. I began to follow her, as she seemed to know where she was going. (Mind you, this was my first time crossing the border on the ground). I think she realized I was following her, as she kept looking back with sort of an annoyed look but I really didn’t care. I was crossing the border on a foggy African morning, with no foreknowledge of what to expect, so annoying her was the LEAST of my worries! (God bless her for helping me!)

Something I didn’t expect is that we WALKED across the border. I later came to realize that our bus had driven to a staging area right across the border and then once we had all gone through Ugandan immigration, we would load back on it and be on our way. But like I said, I found that out LATER... On the walk I was challenged by a semi truck, a few bicycles, local vendors and the money changers. There were probably about 50 men out there in these green lab coat looking things, and as we got closer they began to run towards us saying “Sister, change? Good rate!” “Change?” “Francs to shillings, good rate...” And so on... It was crazy, but I made it. Thank the Lord!

Once across the border, I followed my ‘guide’ across a precariously pieced together bridge and up onto a side walk, to stand for another fifteen minutes in line. There was a building I came to realize we needed to go into, and another card to fill out. This was the entrance into Uganda card. Same sorts of questions. Once the line got to the front, two guards let a certain amount of people in at a time. (One actually had a stick in his hand to not allow more than they wanted to enter the building). Again, upon entering, we stood in ‘lines’ as we awaited our turn to talk with the teller there. This was another lesson in no personal space. (There are some things that just have to get sacrificed sometimes I guess). The teller asked me how long I’d be in Uganda, what I was doing there, and where I would be exactly. She asked if one month was enough, said “You pay $50,” and with a visa sticker completed and few big stamps coming down on the page of my passport, I was legal to enter Uganda. Back outside I went, pushing my way through the crowd in the small lobby. There were more vendors, and more people to get through, but I had previously scouted out my bus’ location, so I was able to get to it quickly. I boarded and sighed in relief. I made it! Or so I thought... 

A couple of ladies who were sitting in front of me on the other side of the bus asked me if I had a long, dark colored bag. When I said yes, they informed me that the border patrol needed to check my bag because it was locked. Yikes. Ok. I climbed down the stairs once again (the ones I had previously climbed in false victory) and explained to the officer in front of me that the bag in question was mine. “Yes. We need to check it. Unlock it. Its very heavy.” I unlocked the bag and then watched as the officer moved things around, checking for any illegal items. He stood back up, satisfied that I wasn’t smuggling anything dangerous and asked me for my passport. I tried to explain that the weight was due to the x-ray lead I was taking with me, but he didn’t seem to mind. He saw that I was from the US and asked me if I was a student. “No. I’m going to volunteer at a hospital in Gulu.” The guy that was helping him asked if I was American and when I said yes, loudly exclaimed “I love America!” I laughed in amusement to his excitement and the mood lightened. The other officer handed me back my passport and wished me a safe journey. I climbed back up the stairs, got to my seat and sat down. A smile began to form on my face as I just sat there in amazement. Wow...

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Kigali rain

Sept 15, 2009  4pm

It just got done raining. Rwanda is fairly close to the equator, so this rain started quietly, but as the storm became thicker the sound in the house was almost deafening as the it beat against the tin roof. I had been taking a nap but as I heard the sound grow in intensity and volume, I realized that my laundry, as well as the Ntezimana family’s, was outside on the clothesline. At this realization I jumped out of bed to go save it from the precipitation. As I frantically gathered the items and moved them into the house where they would stay dry, I began to think of what rain means. 

Obviously, it is wet. From a scientific standpoint, it is the condensation in clouds that has evaporated from various water sources and is then released again. And it often brings cooling, calming, life giving qualities as it pours out over sun scorched land. To me, however, it also reminds me of Oregon, vibrant life and God’s heart towards us.

In Oregon, or rather in the Willamette Valley, it rains a lot. Its pretty much guaranteed from the end of September until May there will be a substantial amount of rain poured out over the I-5 corridor. This is why Western Oregon has some of the lush foliage and wonderful farmland that it does. Without water there can be no life. So when there is a plethora there is also a direct effect on the plant life. That is why trees grow better, underbrush is thicker, grass seed can be farmed in the Albany area and the rivers are clean and able to be swam in. And no matter how much I have ever complained about the ‘rainy winters,’ the reality is that I love the effect and have probably taken it for granted too many times.

Rain also shows me vibrant life. Not just a greater amount of foliage, but also more beautiful and wonderful plant matter. Just think about the beauty of tropical flowers. They would not become so vibrant in color and splendor if not for the vast amounts of rain that falls on them throughout the year. There is something about water that is synonymous with life. The human body is composed of mostly water, and death can result from dehydration very quickly. Water equals life. 

I believe that this is why I think of God when rain comes also. Not only is He over all that happens on this earth, including weather, but He is also a river of life for every believer. Jesus even told the Samaritan woman that if she knew who was asking her for water she would have asked Him for the Water that forever satisfies. Just like heavy rain poured out over the thirsty ground of dry African plains is satisfying and life giving, so is God’s grace, love and mercy when poured out over the thirsty spirits of the saints. He is satisfying, life giving and sustaining. Apart from Him is veritable spiritual dehydration, with death lurking around the corner if the separation is allowed to remain for too long. Being hydrated, moistened and even drenched by His river of life is something every soul can appreciate and that every spirit desperately needs. So maybe standing in the ‘rain’ would do us all good today. To let it cool our wounded hearts, bring life to our dry bones, and maybe, just maybe, create in us a vibrance that would would be unmatched by anything the world could offer...

Monday, September 14, 2009

Kayenzi once again




















I made my way back out to Kayenzi Sector yesterday (the 13th). It took a while to get out there because I had wanted to go to church in Kigali at Rwanda for Jesus, so I couldn't possibly leave until around 11:30. Then it took a while to get a taxi, so I ended up leaving Kigali town around 1:30pm. The joys of 'Africa Time.' 
We got out to Kayenzi at around 3 and picked Christophe up at the center. He was all smiles, again. We made our way to his house, where a whole grip of people were waiting. His mother, sister, wife, kids, and one of his wife's work mates was there, waiting for me to arrive. It was so sweet to greet them all and to be greeted by the kids! Emeline ran up and gave me a huge hug, and though Marie was more reserved (she was bawling last year when our team went to visit because she wasn't used to seeing white people), she still greeted me. And then came Jean Paul! Last year he was only 3 weeks old when we met him and was all bundled up in blankets. This time he almost crawled right out of the house! He is a few days shy of one year old and is now pulling himself up to things, walking with help and standing on his own. He also uses the coffee table as a drum a lot! He is very healthy and vibrant, and everything a one year old should be. It was so neat to see him all grown up and big like that.
We shared a FEAST together, and I really felt like an honored guest. Its sort of hard for me to accept that kind of treatment, as I would rather serve them, but God is working on me and enabling me to be able to receive as well. (Who knew that receiving was difficult?!) We ate chips, meat, sauce, rice, bananas, pineapple, green beans and had Fanta to drink, of course. It was so delicious and I was so blessed to share that meal with such sweet friends!
We just chatted and shared with one another for a while. Christophe showed me the other mountain he had grown up on and the general idea of how far he had to walk to get to primary school. Goodness. I thought that warming my car up so the windshield could defrost in the Cottage Grove winter was bad! He walked at least 20 minutes to school and back twice a day. They had to go home for lunch, so 20 minutes to school, a trip home and back for lunch and then back again after school. I was just amazed. 
After visiting for a while with the family, we decided to walk from Christophe's house to the parish, because I wanted to visit Father Anatole. Before we left the house, though, Christophe said he had a gift for me. He went into another room and reappeared carrying a big book. As I looked at it I realized it was a Kinyarwanda Bible! I have been wanting one since I was in Rwanda last year and have been telling everyone this year that I want to find one. Christophe said he had two and wanted me to have one. I was speechless... I tried to read a few verses, and though I could pronounce most of the words, I had no idea what they meant. Oh well. I'll work on it.
Walking along the Kayenzi streets was wonderful. It brought back so many wonderful memories and I was so glad to again be walking step in step with my good friend. And then we made our way to the parish where I greeted Father Anatole (I've gone to calling him Padri, as most other Rwandanese do), along with Father Jean Pierre and Deacon Jared. Father Jean Pierre just arrived in Kayenzi a couple weeks ago and will now share the priest duties with Father Anatole. And Deacon Jared is only one year from being a priest himself. 
We visited for a couple hours before I decided I should head back to Kigali. It was dark, as it was about 7:30pm, and I didn't want to get back to Kigali town too late. All in all, it was a beautiful day spent with very special friends.